From Pastor to Bastard

Or at least that is what some would conclude isat these events while saying that you really don't
the result of the route my religious experiencehave to attend, but you do. Ministers often
has taken me. But, of course, from myconstruct the Church in such a way as to create
perspective, the trip through the Christian,a full week of work for themselves. This work is
organized and corporate church has brought me anot necessarily real work, but it keeps him "busy".
freedom that those who speak of "freedom" andIf you are in such a church, one that seems to
"grace" within the crazy world of disorganizedinvade not only your weekend, but most of your
religion could never know. Experience is the bestweek, just withdraw to a more simple life of just
teacher and may be only one that leave you withchurch attendance and I bet you get a visit or
any depth of conviction.Having been a devoteesome sideways comment from the pulpit not to
from my youth through middle age to a literalistforsake the assembling of yourselves together as
view of Christianity as both a lay member andis the custom of some...namely YOU.A church can
then on into the ministry, and then, slappedmake you feel really really guilty for not "serving
awake by reckless religious change, I havethe brethren", but resist that and serve yourself
become an expert in what I don't believefirst. Just say no. Then love the ones you can
anymore. I can explain well why inerrancy is aquiety behind the scenes to their good. What you'll
mistaken view of scripture. I can explain Christianfind is others saying "brother, I wish I could do
origins and the violent history of the so calledwhat you are doing, but..." The bottom line is they
Christ-like church. I can well explain the misery aare afraid of what others will think of them. Get
literalist view of Christianity can inflict upon a soul,over it.I no longer give my money to churches. A
a marriage or a family, and how well any systemreal God doesn't need my money. I gave them
of rigid, "we are the true people and we have theenough and they mispent it, plain and simple.
true perspectives" keeps one from one fromApproximagely $75,000 worth of giving and I was
every being truly free to think.But being anthe darn Pastor! Along with that, they wouldn't
expert in what I don't believe is not satisfyingsave social security because you don't have to
personally of course. A journey should leadwith a pastor's income, and then broke a promise
somewhere and growing up should provide afor retirement pay. Spiritual bastards all...Most
positive result from past experiences. Throwingchurches teach the Old Testament tithing as if
Jonah off the ship did indeed stop the storm, butJesus himself set it up for the New Testament
being swallowed by a sea beasty is not the mostChurch to prosper under. Jesus could not care less
pleasant experience either. At least after beingabout tithing even in his own day. Of course he
puked up on shore, we can hope that we canwasn't anticipating all that would follow and be
draw a few conclusions from the whole ordeal.done in his name either. One prominent Church
It's those conclusions, for me, that I would like toFather went so far as to note "what profit this
share with the hope that those who experience amyth of Jesus has brought us." Yikes, yet
similiar awakening thru disillusionment with thetrue.Tithing is one of those convenient things that
organized Church, of any denomination, candoesn't come under the New Covenant, but is still
identify with.First of all, while many will say, "wellGod's will for our financial well being. Or so one is
you just had a bad experience with THATtold. Eat all the mice, snakes, dogs, pigs and
church," this is not really so. This is usally followedrabbits you want, but God loves a cheerful tither.
by my needing to come to their church and seeIn fact, it is how your prove God exists as the
the difference. While my personal experience waspromise is to try it out and see if the windows of
a combination of sincere searching and wonderfulheaven won't open for YOU. They won't no
friends, the end result has been a spiritual disastermatter what Malachi says in the Old Testament.
for many, of whom I am only one. I sayIf you complain, the minister will tell you
"disaster" but in the long run, it was a case ofsomething like, "you have air don't you?" or "you
what's "bad" turning out for the good. The issue ishave a job don't you, and wonderful children?"
no longer finding the "right" church or a nicerYou can't win. Churches that rely on cheerful
group of really really spirit led people. The issuegiving only will never be able to buid a church that
has become the cover up in Christian origins andcan be mistaken for a mall with spires. Nope, it's
history that many pastors of many denominationstithing, of course from your heart, but it darn well
tell me, "well, I know that is so, but if I say that,better still be ten percent of your GROSS, not
I'll lose my job."The average person in the pews isNET income!I no longer abide the teachings of the
a follower and a conformer and not a reformer.lone Guru and Grand Poopa types in religion. The
They are way too trusting that the minister isranters, healers, teachers and showman of Jesus
telling them everything he knows. They need toLand add precious little to a thinking person's
know that most only tell you what they think youspirituality. Too many are clowns in the area of
can handle. That is, of course if he has a validreligion and while entertaining, generally are
theological education. The self appointed types areconsumed with securing their next fix of
never going to do enough study to put them outnarcissistic supply and bucks. Many are sincere,
of the religious racket that rewards their effortsbut not critical thinkers...no money in that.The
so well. The less informed the man, the louder hescary part is that they can spew utter stupidity
will yell and the more angry for God he will appearof both scripture and common human sense, and
to be in an effort to hold on to his turf. He willwe are supppose to care what they think. I don't
also be generally sincere, but sincerely wrong.and you should think it through if you do. We let
Remember, sanctified ignorance is still ignorance.Sothese men get by with BS far too often. If we
what do I believe? What conclusions have I comekeep it up, we will regret the day we let God's
to that work for me, albeit not for those whomen of faith and power mix their religion with our
have yet to walk this path?I no longer need togovernment. We already are coming to regret
attend a corporate church or belong to a religioushow some in government confuse their own
organization to feel safe and informed. Myreligious perspectives with governing. Any man
experience was neither one that provided safetythat can lead one to believe obsurdities, as they
nor information anyway. I'll take a quiet seat nextsay, can lead you to commit atrocities.I don't
to the river anytime. Once you get into theneed to find God in a glass, mahogany, teak, gold,
corporate church, you better get ready to kisssilver or platinum Cathedral, Church or Worship
your money, personal energy, time and freedomCenter. I once attended a place where the building
of thought goodbye. In far too many places, youwas dedicated as the "House for God." It cost
really do check your brain at the door.I don't needmillions and most of the people who paid for it,
to listen to a man try, every week to convincenever set foot in it...a TV ministry. But then the
me the Bible is the inerrant word of a never reallyplace was sold and God was evicted. Good thing
here, ever present God. It is not. Most ministers Ithe Book says he wasn't living there anyhow. Any
know only tell the congregation what they canreal God lives within the human anyhow, a place
handle, which is precious little and certainly nothingmost humans would never think to look. No
new from what mommy and daddy taught them.literalist church wants you to discover you don't
Many people attend church out of fear of tribalneed the church after all to be a content and
(family) retribution if they stopped. They don'tgrounded human being. They certainly don't want
want to attend. They don't get anything from it.you to think you were born right the FIRST
They disagree with it. It is boring. It is repetitivetime.When people ask what church I attend, as
and manipulative. They'd rather stay home andthey are wont to do here in the south because
rest, but...it's what I/we are expected to do andthey can't fathom that you wouldn't, I tell them
darn it, what I want to do never counted forthe "Non-Condemnational Church of God." They
much anyhow.I no longer need or want anylook at me and just say "oh"....and then "I get it".
organization to plan my life's time to suit theirBut they don't.Life is experiences and experiences
needs or give them the illusion of work beingare for learning. I haven't really gone from Pastor
accomplished. Ministers are notorious for makingto Bastard. Well, ok for some I have. But I am
their own work. Some spend the sermonfree, and while it's true the truth can set you free
offending and scaring everyone so they canafter pissing you off, there is more deeply spiritual
spend all week visiting for damage control. Manytruth to be learned outside of organized religion,
plan so many things to do for the membersmall size churches and from men who are given
during the week, that they seem to forget thatfar too much attention as if they knew. It's within
most real people have a life of work and family.you.....It's within YOU.
Many judge your spirituality by your attendance